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It's Never Enough

by Mizpah

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1.
Launch 01:14
2.
Trying to escape, escape from oppression, lower health poison, hoping for enrichment. Trying to escape, escape from oppression, lower health poison, hoping for enrichment. Trying to escape, escape from oppression, lower health poison, hoping for enrichment. Trying to escape, escape from oppression, lower health poison, hoping for enrichment. Reaching the border, feeling optimistic, expecting new choices, then the demons came. Reaching the border, feeling optimistic, expecting new choices, then the demons came. Reaching the border, feeling optimistic, expecting new choices, then the demons came. Reaching the border, feeling optimistic, expecting new choices, then the demons came. The parents get separated, thrown into cages, the kids get taken away, scattered around. The parents get separated, thrown into cages, the kids get taken away, scattered around. The parents get separated, thrown into cages, the kids get taken away, scattered around. The parents get separated, thrown into cages, the kids get taken away, scattered around. The parents get sent right back, back to where they started, kids arrive in uncertain lands, all plagued with trauma. The parents get sent right back, back to where they started, kids arrive in uncertain lands, all plagued with trauma. The parents get sent right back, back to where they started, kids arrive in uncertain lands, all plagued with trauma. The parents get sent right back, back to where they started, kids arrive in uncertain lands, all plagued with trauma. Trying to escape, escape from oppression, only to receive more, demonized withering. Trying to escape, escape from oppression, only to receive more, demonized withering. Trying to escape, escape from oppression, only to receive more, demonized withering. Trying to escape, escape from oppression, only to receive more, demonized withering.
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Party & Play 03:28
(Lyrical CW: Abuse, Rape) To the public, he was an ally of the LGBT+ community, but in truth, he was a wolf in sheep's clothing. He used his wealth to donate to charitable causes, conjuring up the persona of a good man, to hide the fact that he was a predator. He saw homeless, drug-addicted, gay black men, and rather than helping them out, getting them out of such a clouding state of body & spirit into a healthy state of body & spirit, he furthered their turmoil into darker depths. He baited the lost souls into further demonized bondage, drugging them up with methamphetamine to manipulate them into being enslaved to shallow sexual gratification. What resulted was not only vile hypocrisy of the persona but also the furthering of demonized trauma upon others, a repulsive desecration of the body & spirit in many ways, in some cases, to the point where the spirit of death took over. He was violated repeatedly by his father & priests, but rather than coming to terms with his trauma, pursuing therapy and going through the process of healing for his body & spirit, he ran away from it, trying to forget about his past and attempting to bury it, only to end up turning into the people he hated the most. Hence, the furthering of demons' beloved pain & misery furthered. Now, the predator, the rich, white American predator...he rots away, too stubborn to confess his sins, most certainly bound to refuse God's blessings for a long, long time, both in the natural realm and the supernatural realm...staying far away in his corner of shit.
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In the midst of a drought, where people have to be considerate of water usage, the rich, selfish fool indulges in watering plants on the daily. They care more about their garden looking good than being considerate for others. Every day, they crave into their reckless desire for shallow aesthetics & the abuse of resources. Instead of getting weather-appropriate plants, they just choose which ones looked good regardless of practicality. The overindulgence of water waste flows in overabundance! When the water limitations become stricter, they're going to blame it on the poor, even though they played a huge part in the increase due to their water waste. Do you really think aesthetics are worth making everyone else's lives more stressful? I guess that's the case because you like to blame your problems on everyone but yourself, you incompetent, self-unaware fool.
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Lately, out in the distance, I keep hearing a yelp. It's a yelp, seemingly of pain, from what sounds like a dog. Hearing the yelps & whines, I think, "Is that critter okay?" I leave my house and check for the sound to make sure the critter was alright. Turns out, the critter was more than alright. It was being a whiny son of a bitch crying wolf. The terrier keeps yelling & whining about, completely failing to obey his owner's voice. It's fitting he shares his name with a form of candy as his mind functions like chocolate starfish. He doesn't listen to anybody's commands because he has been failed to heed the call of his owner's voice. Ever call his owner makes, he ignores. Even when someone who actually has a commanding voice calls his name, he ignores. He would rather run around in circles and chase after strangers on the road, barking at them, than obey the call of his owner. His owner lacks command, her energy being out of sync with his own. She tries to lure him with treats, but he always catches notice. I ask her to lend a leash and walk him as he was in dire need of a long walk, but she said not right now...in the midst of the terrier exhibiting behavior that bluntly suggests doing a walk as soon as possible. Realizing there's nothing I could truly do to help this situation out, I went about and minded my own business. Every day, I hear the yelps & whines of a critter that sounds like they're in pain, but after realizing it's the same disobedient terrier crying wolf, I ignore him. As much as I want to help that dog out, it's hard to command a dog that fails to obey. When the day comes when that dog gets accidentally ran over (God forbid), I won't know because due to the amount of times where that hasn't been the case, I've been trained to ignore. I'm sorry for your loss, I really am, but if you didn't want that to happen, perhaps you shouldn't have owned a high-maintenance dog. You lacked the command, energy, and focus necessary for raising such a critter, and as a result, you gave each other an unbalanced, inconvenient relationship. Perhaps this was a release of a burden for you, but you & I wish it wasn't in the way it occurred. I wish you let him out in the fields, instead! How fitting that would be for a rebellious son of a bitch who cried wolf to finally run among them?
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(Lyrical CW: Sexual Harassment) Slut-shaming, body-shaming, trying to reach, the ideal male fantasy. Systematic shaming, of your sacred temple, and now you spread, your internalized misogyny. Once the victim, now the perpetuator! We don't like your body, You have a rollercoaster body. NOW PISS OFF!!! Go struggle for another job & quit wasting our time! Once the victim, now the perpetuator! Too old. Too manly, Just right. Now come on in. And strip! NOW!!! Once the victim, now the perpetuator! Perfectly recruitable... but we have to make sure... you're fit... for the ideal male fantasy! Once the victim, now the perpetuator! Gaining sadistic delight, body shaming women, to feel better about yourself, while internalizing insecurity!
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Narcisshit 05:15
(Lyrical CW: Abuse) “Oh, the world revolves around me. Oh, I’m the most important person in the world. Oh, I’m always the one with the right opinion. Oh, I’m literally a god.” Says the narcissist shitheel who is lacking in worthwhile qualities. They think the world revolves around them when in reality, the world will continue to revolve without them. They think they’re so important when they’re actually a waste of life. They think they always have the right opinion when they actually have the opinions of a smooth-brained jackass. They think they’re literally a god when they’re actually the ultimate fucking poser. The narcisshit dresses up in nice clothes and puts on a deceptively charming appearance to lure their next victim into a gradual cycle of exploitation. They force their victim to worship them, giving them constant admiration, and absolutely avoid giving them any criticism whatsoever. If you dare even remotely criticize them, it’s like spitting in the face of God. “TIME FOR PUNISHMENT!!!” You deserved to be punished in the abusive words of the vain narcisshit. You dare try to argue with the narcisshit, expect to be drained by the vampyric filth. The narcisshit loves to destroy your self-esteem. In their eyes, they are the only worthwhile presence and you are a peasant compared to them. They never have enough good things in their life, and you have too much! “TIME FOR GASLIGHTING!!!” An endless cycle of boasting, envy, hedonism, and misanthropy permeates the narcisshit. They think their presence is what makes things better, but in reality, they are the ultimate gobshite. They are the bane of humanity, offering little-to-no worth for this planet. Yahweh may have intended the best for the narcisshit, but they rejected Yahweh’s direction and partnered instead with Satan & demons, the biggest narcisshits of them all. Don’t bother with any narcisshit; they have no interest in your prudent words or a healthy relationship with you. They don’t care about showing empathy or understanding you; they only care about boasting their own shallow opinions and controlling you. They already signed their death warrant when they rejected the Holy Spirit. You reject your heavenly mum, TIME TO DIE!!!
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Another mass shooting occurs. Argue the same status arguments. Get little change done. Everyone forgets and moves on... everyone but those directly affected, that is. Another mass shooting occurs. Argue the same status arguments. Get little change done. Everyone forgets and moves on... everyone but those directly affected, that is. Another mass shooting occurs. Argue the same status arguments. Get little change done. Everyone forgets and moves on... everyone but those directly affected, that is. Another mass shooting occurs. Argue the same status arguments. Get little change done. Everyone forgets and moves on... everyone but those directly affected, that is. The cycle repeats, but it doesn't have to. We shouldn't let their deaths be in vain. No one needs an automatic or sub-automatic. Self-defense is a deceptive trick pushed upon the mentally ill by gun companies who value profit more than the sacred temples God injected with life. The mentally ill doesn't deserve that exploitation. You fuckers' systematic ableism & misanthropy will face God's vengeance soon enough.
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Yearning 10:49

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I'm happy to release my debut album under my Mizpah alias: It's Never Enough, the first proper album I've made in a while, thanks to the result of inspiration from the Holy Trinity, getting anti-depressants, and a strong drive to make as much music as humanly possible in the midst of my college studies. Nine tracks of power electronics abound, some being rather soft (the last two tracks), others bound to rip up your eardrums ("Flight Attendant Blues," "Narcisshit"), all offering a healthy amount of experimentation and flavors that industrial fans and noise fans will probably find satisfactory.

If anybody is interested in releasing this album on cassette, CD, or vinyl (preferred), or if you're interested in sharing this on your label digitally, please message me.

This was recorded from April 19, 2022 to July 21, 2023.

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released September 1, 2023

Abishai Smith - production, recordings, mixing, mastering, cover art, no-input mixing board, guitar (1, 5, 6, 8, 9), bass (1, 6, 8, 9), feedback (1, 6), vocals (2-9), MIDI programming (2, 6), pedal (2, 3), field recording (4), percussive objects (5, 6), piano (8)

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Abishai Rancho Palos Verdes, California

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AKA DJ Bathtub, Eden, and Mizpah

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